Dont kow how to cope
Im unsure of where to begin...
This guy got hired to work at my work.. right away you could tell he was diffrent... he was a bit slow.. I went i early to watch him work with one of my friends, she told me she was uncomfortable.. the jokess he made were kind of twisted .. like about people burning and stuff.. he seemed super happy.. and tried to make everyone laugh..just a weird humor...I confornted him.. and told him the things he was joking about was unaceptabl at work... he was very pushy in not listening to me.. I was not as calm and nice of as I should of been.. I didnt know him or what he has gone through...a mass text was sent out from my boss...all the staff had complained we allthought he was inaropriate, and felt uncomfortable... he was fired.. he continued to call the store over and over.. I was informed the RCMP was getting involved..he was going to be banned... I was worried.. "omg... what if he comes and lashes out at me.." No..that didnt happen.. I was to quick to judge .. I found out he commitd suicide in the morning..Now .. want to say I feel like its my fault but by telling people this i feel like im mmaking this all about me and being attention seeking.. but i honestly feel ..Maybe I pushed him over.. maybe if I was nicer.. Maybe if I didnt make such a big deal he would of got that second chance working with me this weekend.. Maybe he would stll be here. He was a nice guy .. I could tell.. but he just had a diffrent way of expressing.
Im asking for prayers.. for him and his family and friends... To pray for me to be a better person... I guess you never no what anyone is going though you could make a diffrence .. pray for me t have no hate or judgement in my heart, and pray that he will forgive me..
Amen, RIP Nima you will always remind me of the better person I need to be!
Where I found truth, there found I my God, who is the truth itself.