Hi everybody.I am a christian male from Romania,age 36,single,and i am all alone.I have lost my entire family(mom,dad and grandma)and i really have no other relatives nor cousins.It is a difficult time for me and i am also struggling with my faith and i guess that i need your encouragements here.I lost my job last year and my life has become in a way impossible and it is so difficult to get/find another job when you live in a country like mine.I live on no income !
I guess i am searching for true christian friends(with whom i can develop a true friendship)with whom i can share my life,my fears,my challenges,my needs etc.It is my hope that this is the place.
I'm praying that God will bring into my life the so needed true christian friends.I am not that strong person so when destruction comes my way all i can do is stay back and take it as it comes.I really have no tools to fight it(write me and i will tell you more why i do not have those tools).At this time i am going through the most toughest times of my life.You will not even believe(if i will tell you)through what i am going right now.It is difficult to stay strong and,as there is no one here for me,i can lose hope instantly.In some ways i don't know why God is allowing me to go through such hard times(almost like Job)and also why He does not hear me crying out to Him.I never ever thought life can be sometimes this way or that i will have to endure such extreme moments.I am also sick and of course that i cannot take care of myself due to the fact that i have no medical insurance over here.In some ways,i just don't know how much time i will be able to bear all of these,all that is coming upon me.I am being on my own for so long now and it's like i have come to the end of my powers,to the end of my energy(that is has to do with the fact that i am way unfed now!).Because i am not eating enough or properly i have lost in weight 15 pounds in the last weeks.
I knew that if my family was here with me(especially my step mom)things would have been totally different !
It feels so bad,so so bad,when you are all alone,when you're looking at others and see that they have a family who is there for them in times of need,in times of struggle,someone who comfort them and to give them a loving hug.It is the most ugliest feeling in the world when you belong to no one,when you look around and see that you belong to absolutely no one.After all,i am a human being as well.Sometimes i am wondering: why was i even born into this world ? To be a total stranger ? To suffer only ? I am not sure that this is the life that i want.No.
I cannot live like this anymore.Wich one of you will open his heart to me ? Wich one of you will want to get involved in my meaningless life ?? Wich one of you will reach out his/her hand out to me ?? Is there anyone out here ?
*** NOTE by Chad: this is a con-artist. ***