I didn't know where else to go. My parents told me not to tell anyone and I have this horrible news bottled up and there's nothing I can do about it. I can't even talk about it to anyone (except my mom and dad, but I get so uncomfortable with them because I don't know how to deal with/handle the news, and I don't do well around people much older than me crying...I flee). I've prayed but need to tell someone because I don't know what else to do besides wait and pray (it's all I really can do but I feel so helpless and frightened and jolted).
This all came at me within a week after I had gotten back from one of those fun weekends where things happen instant after instant, so I went from an immediate high to a valley of low,
My maternal grandma had a scare when she had to go in for some scans, but, thankfully, later everything turned out fine.
My paternal grandma got some cancer results back and she has skin cancer and doesn't get back to the doctors until August.
My mom has to go in to get checked because the doctors found a lump. Possibly cancerous.
I'm scared. So very incredibly scared. And still praying and talking to God to help me through.
I know people can't stay on earth forever, but it'll be scary without them here. We barely have the money to get by and I'm in college and my sister already needs special attention (mainly my mom and I take care of my sis and I don't know what I could do if...my mom's gone...she has her appointment tomorrow and my aunt died two years ago of what they're checking my mom for. My dad couldn't handle taking over with my sister. Quitting school, even temporarily, for me to take care of her full-time would feel wrong because I'm her sister, not mom, and we both need to move on with our lives away from home because we both feel cooped up, and it doesn't feel like my calling. My mom is the one who keeps everyone at home sane.).
My heart also goes out to those in the Denver theater shooting. So many brave and innocents souls were lost or injured.
I pray for strength and good news and for God to grant good health and, I don't know what to ask for..
Your prayers would be greatly appreciated and thank you so much for reading. It felt good to type it out and reach out to fellow Christians. God's blessings be to you all!