For God so loved the world, that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.
I have and will pray for you
The Lord loves you Channing.
You don't need to condemn yourself
Immerse yourself in His word and in prayer.
His word says:
Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.
Take Him at His word no matter what your circumstances are.
He will never leave you or forsake you.
I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore I have drawn you with lovingkindness.
I live yet not I, but Christ liveth in me