Please pray for me today. I'm real tired of people dumping on me. (Not here at talk Jesus)
I feel like people use me as a dumping ground just because I'm nice. I'm kind of angry today. I'm not much use to anyone today.
I know the bible says "Be angry but sin not." I know the bible says, "Forgive, 70 X 7"
I know all that in my head but it's hard to let God instill in in my heart sometimes, when I'm going through bad stuff.
A friend of mine and I were talking on I.M. today. She is an awesome christian. Only 24 years old and seen a life of trouble. Was saved in the process though; she has given her life to Christ.
Her mother chose to keep shooting heroin whilst she was pregnant with my 24 year old friend. Then after my friend was born, her mom and dad continually spiced her baby bottle with liquor because they didn't want to be bothered by her crying.
This baby girl was taken out of that home and flitted from foster home to foster home. When she was 12 years of age, she found illegal drugs. Finally, she felt at peace and felt "right". Because at last she could feel nothing.
Now she is 24 and has been drug-free and sober of alcohol for 8 months. And she credits it all to God.
And here is the advice she gave me today. It's priceless, and I wrote it down off of my Instant Message.:
"Love and forgiveness do not make problems go away. If it were the solution then it might actually be a nice world we live in."
I think she is very wise to know that. She says she is not wise. She doesn't think of herself as special at all. She just doesn't know.
Please pray for me that I can forgive the people who are STILL persecuting me. Thank you.
In Christ's love,