All right...I'm trying to get back into God, but i need an outside opinion on how to help clean up a little, well this is my story.

So I want to get close to God again as i have drifted from him over the past few months. I started Drinking, cursing A LOT, obsessed with sex, and started caring less about other people. It started first when my best friend basically stabbed me in the back and abandoned me for a girl that he liked. (This guy is one of the two people that originally led me to Christ.) The other person that led me to God is a girl who i have fallen in love with. This girl has told me that she feels the same way towards me but on multiple occasions has dropped me to go after other guys. We're still best friends and she still says she like me but I don't believe her but I can't leave her alone, I feel like I have to be there to protect her if something goes wrong for her. Well I also started drinking, mainly Vodka. I get drunk usually atleast twice a week. And i'm afraid it's gonna get worse or i'll start using drugs to try and get a better affect...Through all of this I guess i've gone into some sort of Depression and have stopped eating (and I have thought of killing myself in different ways mostly by gun or hanging)(sorry if this is TMI). I'll eat normally one day, then not eat for the next week. My parent's don't notice because my mom works all the time and my dad is in the army and is stationed in South Korea right now for a year. Which being alone all the time led me to experiment with their alcohol cabinet. If anyone can help, Please do...P.S. I am willing to do anything, but I don't want to lose the girl...I can't imagine living without her, We've been best friends for so long, I guess i can't help it...She also led me to God so i feel really attached to her, I can't explain how much I love her even though she has used me so much before...but please can someone help me?

Hi brother, Reading your post you are great need. We do not have much info from you, but I would immediately suggest that you get into some different company. Take the girl with you.

I am thinking particularly of Christian company. You are going nowhere it would seem, and taken up with with the dregs. You need a complete change. You say you are a Christian and that is good to hear....but you need to get into the right company....Christian company....a good lively church....

Life is too short to be following the wrong path.

1. Draw near to God.
2. Draw near to God.
3. Draw near to God.
4. Take the advice given by brother Stephen. Hang out with godly folks and get yourself planted in a bible believing church where you can both learn the Word of God and fellowship with believers.
You are in my prayers my friend.

Originally Posted by leggomyegg

All right...I'm trying to get back into God, but i need an outside opinion on how to help clean up a little, well this is my story.

So I want to get close to God again as i have drifted from him over the past few months. I started Drinking, cursing A LOT, obsessed with sex, and started caring less about other people. It started first when my best friend basically stabbed me in the back and abandoned me for a girl that he liked. (This guy is one of the two people that originally led me to Christ.) The other person that led me to God is a girl who i have fallen in love with. This girl has told me that she feels the same way towards me but on multiple occasions has dropped me to go after other guys. We're still best friends and she still says she like me but I don't believe her but I can't leave her alone, I feel like I have to be there to protect her if something goes wrong for her. Well I also started drinking, mainly Vodka. I get drunk usually atleast twice a week. And i'm afraid it's gonna get worse or i'll start using drugs to try and get a better affect...Through all of this I guess i've gone into some sort of Depression and have stopped eating (and I have thought of killing myself in different ways mostly by gun or hanging)(sorry if this is TMI). I'll eat normally one day, then not eat for the next week. My parent's don't notice because my mom works all the time and my dad is in the army and is stationed in South Korea right now for a year. Which being alone all the time led me to experiment with their alcohol cabinet. If anyone can help, Please do...P.S. I am willing to do anything, but I don't want to lose the girl...I can't imagine living without her, We've been best friends for so long, I guess i can't help it...She also led me to God so i feel really attached to her, I can't explain how much I love her even though she has used me so much before...but please can someone help me?

Hi, I agree that it really is vital that you have fellowship with mature believers where you are and most importantly, turn away from what you have been doing and draw close to the Lord and start digging into the word.

You said that the problem started after your friend 'stabbed in you back'. Do you hold any unforgiveness in your heart toward him? If so, you need to bring that to the Lord and confess your feelings and ask for forgiveness and choose to forgive your friend.

If we have unforgiveness towards people then this can open the door for the enemy. Believers can be hurt even by other believers.

Matthew 6:14-15 For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

It sounds as if you have a 'soul-tie' with the girl that you have met (where your soul cleaves). I am only just learning about soul ties - they can be Godly or ungodly. In the bible there was a Godly soul tie between David and Jonathon (soul ties aren't just between the opposite sex) and there are other examples of soul ties too - there was an ungodly soul tie between Shechem and Dinah, who he raped (he did not have Godly love for her but he lusted after her).

A believer who is more mature than I am, explained that when a person comes to know Yeshua (Jesus) as their Saviour they may come with issues that haven't been resolved and they may need healing and deliverance (because of demonic oppression) and they may have ungodly soul ties. These things can hinder their walk. Also, if a person has ungodly soul ties then my understanding is that they can experience demonic oppression through them. It is really important to 'guard your heart for it is the wellspring of life' - to choose who you spend your time with carefully, and also to choose what you spend your time doing carefullly.

A biblically based church with mature believers and elders can pray for healing/deliverance and can disciple a new person in faith.

The believer who has been helping me also advised me that we should pray for discernment every day - and if you are not sure what to do you can ask the Lord for guidance and wisdom (and trust that it will be given):-

James 1:5 If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.

I have shared from my own experience, but get a concordance and start looking up scriptures as the Lord leads you. For example, if it was on your heart to really seek the Lord - then you may look up the word 'seek' in a concordance and find scriptures that have that word in. This will help you find God's promises to those that seek Him with a sincere heart.

God bless,

Yeshualives