I am a guy, but sorry not the right one. I am dreamy somewhat emotional and mysterious with out trying to be. I do have kind of a boring life. Have you ever felt love or been in love before? If so what was he like or what did you love about him? It sounds like you have had a lot of guys bent over you. I have found that I myself get turned off by girls that are vulnerable to love who cling to me or show desperation. It is funny because I have really had some strong feelings towards girls but once they get to pushy or show to much vulnerability towards me as in being to nice I start to freak out and I am totally turned off. I have also found that I usually like the girls I can't have or are a challenge it really kind of sucks. I think your best bet would be to try to develop a friendship with out any thoughts of dating, love or that special someone. Being friends and just hanging out being yourself with out that relationship, love pressure is a great way to find a true love. Keep praying to God about it and do not act out of desperation. If you feel like something is not right then something is wrong. Chemistry just happens. There is no real way to find It. God Bless you