Welcome to Talkjesus - I sincerely hope you'll be very happy here. Although neither of my parents were church goers on a regular basis, like you, I too grew up in a Christian environment. The trouble was, I found, once I started work, I became an adult in an adult world, and was expected to behave like one, which I did! God was soon forgotten, the only time I thought about Him was when there were problems, but once the crisis was over I'd be back to my old ways. It wasn't until six years ago, just millimetres away from a nervous breakdown, that I sought - and found the meaning of true salvation. Since that moment my life has never been the same. If you read just one book, read the book of John, and accept the the Lord Jesus Christ loves you exactly as you are, warts and all. How much does he love you? He opened His arms and died for you - that is how much. What does he want in return? Absolutely nothing. Read some of our testimonies in the testimonial section - I am the Christian of convenience.

You say you love to help and counsel others. Although you are not aware of it at the moment, the Holy Spirit bestows certain gifts on individuals. He calls you in accents meek and low.
Peace be with you, Fred.