journalgirl,

There has been some really GREAT advice and words said already. I know how hard it can be to want people to like us, BUT we are not to go after that. This world lasts but a vapor in time. God is eternal...and His place Heaven is forever. Once we wrap our minds around that, we can see what eternity will be like. Seek out God's approval and no one else's. Believe me, I was there...stumbling along. I have a past where my father physically abused me and my grandfather sexually abused me. I felt ashamed, guilty, ugly, dirty, depressed. One day, sitting in my college dorm, I was crying. God showed up in that place like never before. I will NEVER forget that day (even if I forget the date and the hour!). God does those kinds of things for us. He showed me who I am in HIM! Don't let satan tell you otherwise! Let God show you who you are in HIM! :-) Maybe, like you name says, you need to get out a journal and start writing in it...about anything and everything. I did that for awhile...years. It helps. I even wrote prayers in it that I believe God sees, too.

Blessings to you Sister. Maybe, too, it is time to lay it all on the altar at the feet of Jesus. Hard, yes. Worth it, definitely!

~Jen aka G4G~